So I'm not very good at this, am I?????

We dropped A off at college on August 22nd. I love the way freshman are treated on moving in day - seriously, I mean it!! We parked in the parking lot and sent A to get a new ID card because she lost the one she got at orientation already (love the ADHD girl!!). Then she filled out paperwork that I didn't have to sign because she's 18 - yeah!! Then ROTC people took a little golf cart with a trailer on the back to our van and unloaded all her stuff and moved it into her 2nd floor dorm room. We picked up her books at the bookstore, sent dad and sister to radio shack to pick up a computer cord and some batteries, and then sat around and watched her unpack. I was ready to leave when the roomate moved in with 4 people in her family and A looked at me and said "don't go". So we waited a little while longer. There were tears in her eyes and mine when we said good-bye. As DH and S and I walked to the parking lot, S asked if I was all right and I told her I couldn't talk about it. I rushed back to the van, unlocked the door, and sobbed loudly. I felt so bad leaving her there, I knew she was upset too, but in order to get anywhere in life, you have to make sacrifices and move outside your comfort zone and experience life. More later.....

Rambling

So, graduation parties continue this weekend and Ali is running on empty. She came home last night close to tears because parents and other kids at graduation parties keep saying "aren't you excited about college?".....and her true answer is no. She doesn't want to tell people that she needs her mom every day. I tried to explain to her that we have unlimited texting and I'm available at any time and she is free to come home every weekend for as long as she wants, but it's not the same as having mom wake you up every morning and my at the end of the day to tell all the high school gossip to.

So my fears......
1. She's gone on a health kick and she told her sister (who then told me) that she's lost 10 pounds in a month. I know that anorexics feel that life is so out of control and food is something that can be controlled. She does love her boobs so she did say to Sam that she doesn't want to lose more weight because her boobs would shrink - I know, too much information!! BTW, she's not anorexic, but she does have obsessive compulsive disorder which she chose to stop medication for a couple years ago.
2. She will hate college so much that she won't make it through the first semester. I'm hoping that she can make it through the first year and then, if she wants, she can transfer to a college closer to home.
3. She will make both of us such emotional wrecks over the next 5 weeks that we can't enjoy the summer.

Oh vay - I'm done for now. The girls are out getting manicures right now. Sam can't wait to get back to college to hang with her friends and have her independence again - thankfully!!

My reason for blogging

After blog reading for several years, I've decided to try my hand at blogging. I'm sending both of my daughters off to college at the end of August/beginning of September and for the first time in 19 years, I'll have an empty nest.

It was hard to send my older daughter, Sam, off to college last year, but at least I still had Ali at home for her senior year of high school. It has truly broken my heart this year to attend the last band concert, chorus concert, dance recital, honor society ceremony, and graduation.